Today is the day

‎"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned." - Buddha


I subscribe to Quotes Daddy on Facebook, and there's a new, random quote in my newsfeed every morning.  This morning was the above quote, and I couldn't get it out of my head.  I reposted it as my status, and I've been thinking about it all day.  Because it's correct. 
 
Anger is defined as an emotion related to one's psychological interpretation of having been offended, wronged or denied and a tendency to undo that by retaliation.  What good does it do for people to remain angry and hold on to anger and hurt feelings?  The other person doesn't know exactly how you feel, and most of the time they don't even care.  So why let that anger eat at you?  I'm really bad about that.  I hold grudges entirely too long, years at at time.  And though I might eventually forgive, I never foget.  Ever.
 
So, I've decided that today is my day to begin to let things go.  No longer will I read her blog.  No longer will I listen to negativity from people who don't even know the situation & are just trying to stir up drama.  No longer will I take things I hear so personally.  No longer will I care.  No longer will I respond when I know people are just trying to push my buttons. 
 
Today is the day that I bury several relationships and let it all go.  And that feels simply awesome. :)

30-Day Photo Challenge, Day 6

Ok, so I've been slacking.  It's been pretty busy in my world.  And yes, I know I skipped Day 5.  I'll haveta come back to that one.  Those pics are on another computer, and I keep forgetting to get 'em.

Day 6 is a picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.  This one was kinda hard because I love being me, and I love my life everyday, even on the bad days.  But...just for fun, I played along and this is who I came up with:

Camila Alves

She's gorgeous, and she gets to come home to Matthew McConaughey every day.  (I have a somewhat unhealthy obsession with him).  Who wouldn't want that???

30-Day Photo Challenge, Day 4

A habit you wish you didn't have...

This one is quite easy:

I'm addicted, seriously.  It's unhealthy.  I've tried to take a break, but I just can't seem to.  Though I will say that I didn't miss it much after the first day when we were on our cruise 2 years ago,  but I went right back to it.

What is it about Facebook that sucks people in so much?  I started my account when it first came out as a requirement from college professors.  That was before it blew up into what it is today, and professors would post assignments, etc. on their pages.  I don't remember how it quickly transitioned into the social networking black hole that it is today, but wow.

It is a great way to keep up with family and friends that live out of town, but I can't say I use it just for that purpose.  It's a sounding board, a feedback site, and a place to feel better about your life when you see how miserable other people really are (though if you stay negative all the time, I'll hide you or delete you).

It's also a great place to stir drama, as I've noticed lately.  I'd have never thought that anything I posted on Facebook would be deemed so interesting by people who supposedly don't like me, but I apparently am more interesting than I thought.

One day I hope to break this habit...maybe they should start having 12-step programs for Facebook addiction.

30 Day Photo Challenge, Day 3

A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Well, this is a hard one because I now have 3 favorite shows!

So, I can't find a pic of the full cast, but here ya go.  If you haven't seen this show yet, you're missing out.  Timothy Olyphat is yumminess, and the cast & writing are awesome.  Wednesday nights at 9:00 on FX.

Grey's Anatomy.  Still a fave!  It's been kinda up and down on the writing, but I'm still addicted every Thursday night.

My  newest and most favorite show, Detroit 187.  I can't say enough about this show.  You MUST check it out.  Tuesday, 9:00 on ABC.  I've heard rumors that it might not be renewed, but I'm hoping they are false!

30-Day Photo Challenge, Day 2

A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest...

Meet Margaret. :)  She and I have been friends since 10th grade.  We lost touch for awhile (like all old friends do), but found each other again about 5 years ago on Myspace.  She lives in Shreveport, so I don't get to see her as often as I'd like, but we talk (aka "text") daily.  She's been my support in so many sitations lately, and I'm so glad we've grown close again. 

AND, I'm going to visit her this weekend.  So freakin' pumped!

The 30-Day Photo Challenge, Day 1

So, I've been seeing the 30-day photo challenge going around on Facebook, and I decided to do it myself, but on my blog instead.  Though, it'll probably take me longer than 30 days because I don't like to get on computers much on the weekends.  Too much going on!

Day 1 - a picture of yourself with 10 facts.

1.  I'm married to a photographer, and I hate having my picture taken, and I hate most photos of me.

2.  I have been struck by lightning. (One of most people's most entertaining things to learn about me, haha)

3.  I have an unhealthy obsession with Alabama football (Roll Tide!). I get chills every time the guys come out of the tunnel onto the field.  Seriously, do not plan an event on a game day or chances are pretty slim that I'll be there!

4.  The filter between my brain and my mouth is permanently out of order, though at times I wish it wasn't.

5.  I have worn makeup maybe 5 times since junior high school.  I hate it! 

6.  I love checking the mail! I'll check it several times a day even when I know there's nothing in there.

7.  I am a control freak and WAAAYYY OCD.  That's probably why my job as an Event Planner is perfect for me.

8.  I am extremely naive, though I've learned to put my guard up a little lately, and I don't trust people easily at all.

9.  I love dirt-track racing!  I'm currently jonesing because I haven't seen any since the season ended in October, and probably won't until April 'cause my weekends are jam-packed.  Robbie has 2 uncles with "boxes" at the local track, but I refuse to sit in them 'cause it just ain't the same without dirt in my hair. 

10. I am pertified of spiders. Not to the point where I won't kill them myself, but I'd still rather have someone else do it for me. They're too sneaky and can hide in your shoes.

Look, I can be passive-aggressive too!

So, this post is specifically for one person.  She knows who she is, and I know she'll read it (or have someone read it and report back to her).  I apologize to anyone else that is tired of hearing about all this.  I debated for several days on writing this, but it just keeps going, so I had to.

So, I'm the one stalking you, huh (according to this)?  That's quite funny.  I've admitted I read your blog.  Hell, you beg people to read it and be your follower, so I am quite surprised that you fuss about me reading it.  I find it amusing that little 'ole me still gets to you that way.  But let's be honest. You're still keeping up with me too.  At least I can admit it.  Oh, you're not?  That's funny.  Let's look at some of your previous posts, shall we?

1. From this post regarding a Facebook status of yours, you talk about "people" posting negative things as their Facebook status and that all it does is "create more drama, hurt feelings, and negative responses."  And you give examples, 2 of the 3 of which have been my Facebook statuses recently (I'm tired of all the whining - I posted Tuesday, March 1 at 3:14pm; and Truth Hurts - I posted Thursday, March 24 at 12:45pm).  The other one was "I hate stupid people" which I post quite frequently, though I can't find a specific date on that one.  My point is this. I find it quite funny and ironic that my profile page is completely private, yet you reference 2 of my recent statuses in this blog.  Coincidence?  I think not.  My response to you is, if you don't like what I post, stop having people read it and tell you what I'm posting.  And if "you're not asking them, they just try and offer information" stop them.  I have.  It's not hard to say you don't care.  It's MY Facebook page and MY blog, and I'm not always happy all the time.  If I choose those avenues to vent, so be it.                      

2. Now, regarding this post, maybe you shouldn't take every piece of gossip that you hear to heart.  I learned a long time ago (and have been reminded since our falling out) that Meridian is a small town with a lot of people trying to start mess.  Since our last spat about me taking Katie's picture down, I have not said one word about you.  Seriously.  I don't talk about you.  I haven't "talked crap" behind your back.                                                                                                                                    You apparently also took all of that wrong.  As much as I'd like to have our friendship mended, it can't happen.  Too many things have happened and we'd never be the same.  I don't trust you, you don't trust me.  All I was trying to accomplish was at least being civil with each other.  And I only said you were STALKING me when you kept on and on wondering if the picture had been taken down when you knew full well it hadn't yet. 
3. Lastly, regarding this post, again about one of MY Facebook statuses (but you're not stalking me) "‎"Christians" like that are one reason I have such a jaded view of religion. Great job of practicing what you preach..." posted this past Friday, March 11 at 9:21pm.  I'm glad that you're getting closer to God.  Good for you.  But don't post in this blog about how you don't "pot stir anymore" because I have evidence to the contrary.  My status was absolutely in reference to you.  How Christian of you to post "every time I see her pop up in the site meter it just chapps my ass....GET A LIFE."  I'm sure they teach you that in church.  See, it's hypocrites like you that give me a jaded view of religion.  You can fool all your new friends, but I know you better than you know you.  Yes, Christians slip.  I was saved when I was young, and I have strayed.  I'm studying different views of religion trying to make sense of it all, so I get it.  But don't go brag about how high and mighty you are.  I know better.                                                                                                             “Better to be known as a sinner than a hypocrite.” - Proverb

Now, all of that being said, I don't hate you.  I never have.  You can believe otherwise if you want, that's your business.  I do miss the way our friendship used to be.  All this passive-agressive posting is beyond childish which is why I waited so long to respond.  I kept thinking you'd stop, but I was wrong.  If you wanna know what's going on in my world so freaking bad, just send me a friend request.  That's much better than knowing there's someone on my friend's list that likes to run and tell everything I post.

My offer from December 1 (which you declined) will always stand - I'm still willing to have lunch, drinks whatever and talk about everything face to face, like adults.  No, it'll never mend our friendship, but it might offer us both some closure and answers that we need.  I wish you the best.  But please, ask me if you hear anything that I've supposedly said.  There's about a 99.9% chance that it isn't true, and you know me well enough to know that. 

My Thought for Today

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonn...a fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."


— Marilyn Monroe

I am so thankful for the people in my life.  I love you all!